I Wonder !

That stupid feeling! It has to go.

If it doesn’t I am going to drown in it. That can’t be good.

But what is this that is pulling me from inside, I wonder! All that is great and all that is alright is not enough, I wonder why?

Can I go beyond what’s scary and difficult? And when?

Another Beautiful Day

When I was riding to office, my heart was filled with warmth & happiness and I had a smile on my face. So thought of capturing another beautiful day in my life. So here it goes . . .

 

A beautiful day 

Sleeping early the previous night helped me wake up early today. With just couple of hours early filled me with so much of energy & enthusiasm.

With taking my dog out for a walk & making sure I pester my husband till he finally gets out of the bedJ, the day began beautifully. Little time on the roof trying to save ourselves from eagles & do some stretches followed by little yoga in the room, filled my heart with happiness. Happy for spending time with hubby & watching Frodo following me everywhere and doing the shavasan next to me.

It started as a perfect day with breakfast at home and packing lunch (phew finally!!)

And even the ride to office gave me the confidence to tackle the rest of the day.

So this has to be continued.. Early to Bed & Early to Rise.. Makes me Happy, happy and Happy J

 

Scared of Unknown

Why am I scared?
I wish I knew the answer.
All i want is to sleep peacefully,  but still wide awake. It's all difficult to understand.  I am looking for the ease in life. .for that Kick!
Hope to find it soon. .Amen!

What is it??

I am not sure what is wrong. I am in a flight. .leaving home and heading to Bangalore,  which has essentially become my home now.  I should be happy to be back.
But here I am sitting with tears trickling down my cheeks, unable to stop them..unable to hide them. I don't even know the reason!
There is a feeling of mourning,  as if something has died in me.
I am supposed to be happy. .recently married to the man of my choice..who loves me, in laws who are kind to me, family who has gone against all the social norms and has accepted my inter-cast marriage with full heart. And yeah. ..there is an increment in salary too. So technically nothing wrong in personal and professional front.
But this constant feeling of sadness is killing me. As if there is an obsession of being sad all the time.

What is it that I want?
What is it that I need?
What is it that my heart is searching for?

May be someday I'll have answers...May God someday arrives soon!

Stranger in Me!

I don't know what is this? The sense of love & connection or the fear of commitment.
I think both. But the unsettling feeling is something I don't like. It feels like the happiness is still a little out of reach.
I was glad to notice that now I don't feel that all the sad songs in the world were written specifically for me. Hopefully will reach to a level when I will have a different feeling that all the Happy songs are written for me :) Amen!
So many things need to be sorted, it seems time is running out! Only if I could save some for myself.

Life doesn't get easier, you just get stronger!

I read this today morning in someone's blog who compares how life has changed in years. He compares the story of yesteryear blockbuster Abhimaan and the newly released Aashiqui2. The stories of two movies is more or less same but the difference in the way they end has got him thinking and questioning the mindset of today's youth.
This I feel is very close to what everyone thinks these days. The amount of pressure we have..rather say ..we create for ourselves is humongous. It's all in our heads. I guess we are in the practice of exaggerating everything. The new generation loves to Show-off, some where the humility that used to be the most possessed virtue is becoming a sign of No Aggressiveness and feeling Too Content. That is why..any small success we see, which is mostly the Beginners Luck, it goes right into our heads and we feel we are indispensable. But are we really indispensable? We are certainly not...and that's where we feel we are loosing. Followed by this..the habit of exaggeration comes into picture..and even minor setbacks look so huge that we feel that the world is crashing and just can't take it anymore. 

Green Question Mark ???

Old Post - I think 3.5 years old.. Thought of publishing it today :)

Green Question Mark..... Great! Does the color signifies the Life or the question signifies My Life - Mystery!!

Life:

7:0 am - Wake-up
7:35 am - Take dogs for warning walk to the park
7:55 am - Think about "To COOK or To not COOK"
8:30 am - Make-up
8:45 am - Dress-up
9:00 am - Run to the car ; feel relieved if tyres are not deflated.
9:30 am - Store shutter-up
7:45 pm - Leave the store .. driving begins......
8:30 pm - Reach home , take dogs to park
8:55 pm - finally enter the house properly n relax
9:00 pm - Watch tv... and "To COOK or To not COOK"

The Question remains the same  -  

Green Question Mark..... Great! Does the color signifies the Life or the question signifies My Life - Mystery!!